Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity. A groan of tedium escapes me, I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them fall away I know the pieces fit cuz I watched them tumble down The poetry that comes from the squaring off between, There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall
away. Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any So familiar and overwhelmingly warm We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment, Suck and suck. Black then white are all I see in my infancy. Mention this to me I have come curiously close to the end, though "I, I don't have a whole lot of time.
Calculate what we will or will
not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive
your scarlet lettermen.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all
comes down.
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end.
Clutch it
like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes down.
Terrified of being wrong.
Ultimatum prison cell.
Saturn ascends, choose one or ten. Hang on or be
humbled again.
Clutch it like a cornerstone. Otherwise it all comes
down.
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end.
Saturn ascends,
comes round again.
Saturn ascends, the one, the ten. Ignorant to the damage
done.
Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we
will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable
to forgive your scarlet lettermen.
Wear your grudge like a crown.
Desperate to control.
Unable to forgive. And we're sinking
deeper.
Defining, confining, controlling, and we're sinking
deeper.
Saturn comes back around to show you everything
Let's you
choose what you will not see and then
Drags you down like a stone or lifts
you up again
Spits you out like a child, light and innocent.
Saturn
comes back around. Lifts you up like a child or
Drags you down like a
stone
To consume you till you choose to let this go.
Give away the
stone. Let the oceans take and
Transmutate this cold and fated
anchor.
Give away the stone. Let the waters kiss and
Transmutate these
leaden grudges into gold.
Let
go.
2.Eon Blue Apocalypse
3.The Patient
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It
has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drain
vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.
But I'm
still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right
here.
Wait it out,
Gonna wait it out,
Be patient (wait it
out).
If there were no reward to [reap / heal],
[No / A] loving
embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly
would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.
If there were no
desire to heal
A damaged and broken man along
This tedious path I've
chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may
... (sigh) ... I still may.
Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself
of this.
And if there were no rewards to [reap / heal],
[No / A]
loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I
certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may.
Gonna wait it
out.
4.Mantra
5.Schism
Mildewed and
smoldering. Fundamental differing.
Pure intention juxtaposed will set two
lovers souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes testing our
communication
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between
us so
We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication.
No fault, none to
blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
Point the finger, blame the other,
watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together, rediscover
communication
And the circling is
worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.
Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
I've done the
math enough to know the dangers of our second guessing
Doomed to crumble
unless we grow, and strengthen our communication.
Sense of compassion
Between
supposed lovers/brothers
This one, this form I hold
now.
Embracing you, this reality here,
This one, this form I hold now,
so
Wide eyed and hopeful.
Wide eyed and hopefully wild.
We barely
remember what came before this precious moment,
Choosing to be here right
now. Hold on, stay inside...
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not
alone in
This body makes me feel eternal. All this pain is an
illusion.
We are
choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside
This holy reality, this
holy experience.
Choosing to be here in
This body. This body holding
me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body, this body holding
me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion.
Alive, I
In
this holy reality, in this holy experience. Choosing to be here in
This
body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This
body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an
illusion.
Twirling round with this familiar parable.
Spinning, weaving
round each new experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this
chance to be alive and breathing.
This body holding me reminds me of my
own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. we are eternal.
all this
pain is an
illusion.
Suckin up all you can, suckin up all you can
suck.
Workin up under my patience like a little tick.
Fat little
parasite.
Suck me dry.
My blood is bruised and borrowed. You thieving
bastards.
You have turned my blood cold and bitter,
beat my compassion
black and blue.
Hope this is what you wanted.
Hope this is what you
had in mind.
Cuz this is what you're getting.
I hope you're choking. I
hope you choke on this.
Taken all I can, taken you like can, you(?) can
take.
Taken all you can, Taken all you can fuckin' take
Got nothing left
to give to you.
Blood suckin parasitic little tick/blood suckin parasitic
little tick
Take what you want and then go.
Hope this is what you
wanted.
Hope this is what you had in mind.
Cuz this is what you're
getting.
Suck me dry.
Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you had
in mind?
Cuz this this is what you're getting.
I hope you choke.
red and yellow then came to
be, reaching out to me.
lets me see.
As below, so above and beyond, I
imagine
drawn beyond the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it
bend.
Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the
mind.
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my
will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines.
Black then white
are all I see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to
me.
lets me see there is so much more
and beckons me to look through to
these infinite possibilities.
As below, so above and beyond, I
imagine
drawn outside the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it
bend.
Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the
mind.
Withering my intuition leaving all these opportunities
behind.
Feed my will to feel this moment urging me to cross the
line.
Reaching out to embrace the random.
Reaching out to embrace whatever
may come.
I embrace my desire to
feel the rhythm, to feel
connected
enough to step aside and weep like a widow
to feel inspired, to
fathom the power,
to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain,
to
swing on the spiral
of our divinity and still be a human.
With my feet
upon the ground I lose myself
between the sounds and open wide to suck it
in.
I feel it move across my skin.
I'm reaching up and reaching
out.
I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me.
And
following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been.
We'll ride
the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been.
Spiral out.
Keep
going...
Mention something, mention anything
Watch the
weather
change.
Beneath my self-indulgent
pitiful hole,
Defeated
I conceded (?)
Move closer
[Let me / I may]
find comfort here
[Let me / I may] find peace within the emptiness
Coming
for me
It's calling me...
And in my darkest moment, feeble and
weeping
The moon tells me a secret, a confidant
As full and bright as I
am
This light is not my own and
Familiar light reflections pass over
me
The source is the light and endless sheen
The source that makes the
hole black
Without her, we are lifeless satellites drifting
And as I
pull my head out I am without one doubt
You wanna peer down here survey my
narcissism
I must crucify the ego before it's far too late
I pray the
light lifts me out
Before I [hide / pine] away.
So crucify the ego,
before it's far too late
And leave behind this place so negative and blind
and cynical
And you will come to find that we are all one mind
Capable of
all that's imagined and all conceivable
So let the light touch you so that
the words spill through
And let the past break through bringing out our hope
and reason
Before we [hide / pine] away.
13.Faaip De Oiad
Um, OK, I'm a former employee of
Area 51.
I, I was let go on a medical
discharge about a week ago and,
and...
[chokes] I've kind of been running
across the country. Damn, I
don't know
where to start, they're, they're gonna,
um, they'll
triangulate on this position
really soon.
OK, um, um, OK, what we're
thinking of
as, as aliens, they're extradimensional
beings, that, an
earlier precursor of
the, um, space program they made contact with.
They
are not what they claim to be.
Uh, they've infiltrated a, a lot of aspects
of, of, of the military establishment,
particularly the Area
51.
The disasters that are coming, they, the
military, I'm sorry, the
government knows
about them. And there's a lot of safe areas
in this
world that they could begin moving the
population to now. They are not!
They want those major population centers wiped
out so that the few that
are left will be more
easily controllable."
these tool lyrics were collected and put into this webpage by akmon (2004)